s h a d o w; 1. a dark area or shape produced by a body coming between rays of light and a surface. 2. used in reference to proximity, ominous oppressiveness, or sadness and gloom. OTA 25/8 - Action, Texts, Etc. ( art )
[ one reaches a Point between formation B and time-spent-with-the-gang and just.... accepts one's fate? well that's a lie. but some days are more resigned than others........ ]
[ there's a lot he could say to megumi's words, and how they made him feel while reading themβ a deep sense of heartache, but it's best he doesn't. it's more about understanding his perspective, and not 'changing' it.
everyone is entitled to their own opinion, after all. ]
[ he's had the thought before: that he wants more good people to experience fairness, if only a few. and: he is not a good person. and: so fairness, happiness...what has it to do with him? he is here as a jujutsushi as collateral for financial support. perhaps somewhat over time because he can do this job. and now more and more his mind focuses towards itadori. happy? he doesn't know what to say when both yes and no feel like a lie. ]
I don't know how to answer that. Again it's not something I think about.
[ not for himself, anyway, not his own...feelings. ]
[ it is an answer sort of isn't it? that he...hopes he won't be means he wouldn't be okay with it. he wants itadori to live, wants tsumiki to wake up. doesn't frankly want to lose anyone else. but it is sort of scary (he wouldn't admit it) to want to not be alone...when he knows he probably will be. this might be gojou's influence too. or the complete negative space where one fushiguro toji existed even if megumi can't remember him. well. it's hard to say. ]
[ watch and learn. this is how you communicate! β¨β¨β¨β¨β¨ ]
I don't want to be alone. In fact, I really hate the idea of being alone. It's more fun when you have someone by your side, to support you and look out for you, and you do the same of course!
I understand it can be irresponsible to start something, considering our work and the, uh, thing inside of me? so, I'll be very careful about it, make sure they are safe, and they are strong enough to handle it, but I still want to TRY. You get it?
[ he knows saying 'i don't deserve it' won't go anywhere with itadori, so he doesn't say it. but he does think itadori at last deserves to be happy. it takes him a while to formulate a reply. ]
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... you're taking the invasion of your privacy so well. so sus. ]
Are you really not interested in dating?
Like, the general idea of it ... ?
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It doesn't seem to make sense.
[ probably only megumi would answer like this. ]
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[ you dug your own grave with that one. it's time to learn the art of 'expressing your feelings!' β¨ ]
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As jujutsu sorcerers it seems irresponsible?
[ the question mark is less for his own feelings and more for whether or not that makes sense in text... but he is mostly sure it does....sort of. ]
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So ... they're not allowed to be happy?
Isn't that kinda unfair?
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But that doesn't mean it's pointless.
I just don't think about it much.
[ which circles back around closer to itadori's original question, though he adds, ]
I don't know what 'allowed to be happy' means. If you're happy you're happy, if you're sad you're sad.
[ what is 'allowed'? he's over thinking it of course. ]
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[ there's a lot he could say to megumi's words, and how they made him feel while reading themβ a deep sense of heartache, but it's best he doesn't. it's more about understanding his perspective, and not 'changing' it.
everyone is entitled to their own opinion, after all. ]
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I don't know how to answer that.
Again it's not something I think about.
[ not for himself, anyway, not his own...feelings. ]
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You wouldn't mind being alone for the rest of your life?
[ one last question. not that there's any progress when it comes to understanding his mindset. itadori never thought it was this ... complicated? ]
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[ he is purposefully of course reading that differently. perhaps gojou has had SOME influence....more than megumi meant him to anyway. ]
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yes .... ]
You know what I mean.
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[ it is an answer sort of isn't it? that he...hopes he won't be means he wouldn't be okay with it. he wants itadori to live, wants tsumiki to wake up. doesn't frankly want to lose anyone else. but it is sort of scary (he wouldn't admit it) to want to not be alone...when he knows he probably will be. this might be gojou's influence too. or the complete negative space where one fushiguro toji existed even if megumi can't remember him. well. it's hard to say. ]
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[ watch and learn. this is how you communicate! β¨β¨β¨β¨β¨ ]
I don't want to be alone. In fact, I really hate the idea of being alone. It's more fun when you have someone by your side, to support you and look out for you, and you do the same of course!
I understand it can be irresponsible to start something, considering our work and the, uh, thing inside of me? so, I'll be very careful about it, make sure they are safe, and they are strong enough to handle it, but I still want to TRY. You get it?
1/2
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I think I get it.
[ he's thinking about what itadori said to him before: i think your way is right. but that doesn't mean my way is wrong. that might apply here too. ]
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You'll be more accepting, more willing, so we can be happy together. We both deserve it, and we both should try for it.
[ wellβ have some honesty. ]
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That would be good. If it was possible.
[ he's...doing his best.... ]
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[ 'even when I'm no longer here' β but adding that is just too gloomy. ]
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[ and so: you can't die. ]
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[ reminding him, but not the 'don't die' part HASGDK; he has a record, okay!! ]
We're still going out on our next day off!
No maid cafes this time. I promise.
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[ megumi takes that record personally both present and future and he does not Agree don't you dare! ]
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[ oh no. ]
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[ s t a r e s ]
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Like-
'please, yuuji-kun! ♥'
[ he wouldn't be this brave in person. ]
oh my god
Never mind.
HE TRIED
LMFAO THE ICON TOO IM /flips off table
JHSDJS; kugisaki and itadori annoying him is my happy place
megumi stares into the sun....
stares at his cup ....
the cutest cup!!!! ;3;
one day itadori will take it
...he may Borrow it. :| BORROW
borrow? borro- ... take? you mean 'take' it, right? ok.
that's his favorite cup itadori yuuji!!!!!!!!
... Read ββ
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